Calling myself out

Hello everyone. I am here before you today to call myself out on my actions. I sincerely regret my actions last night. And that is why I am posting this in "Just Plain Lame" section. Because, well, I was lame last night. This post is 100% real. What I say here, I want to stay here. No guild flaming in-game, and no mention of it to alliance or buddies (except to the ones who I describe in this thread). If you want to flame me, give a rant on me, or call me out on it, do it right here. KissandRide has had a lot of drama in Maple lately, and it spread like a wildfire.

No Emoticons can express how I feel about this, so I will not add any. I find no point in using them in a serious thread like this. I feel that if I did add any, it'd be a slap in the face for trying to "lighten the mood". In all seriousness, there will be no joking, and no sugarcoating the truth. If you guys do not believe me, I cannot make you.

Inappropriate comments are called as such for a reason. *For all purposes intended, I will not repeat what I had said.* I had no idea what I had done until I had said it. Last night, a little after I got my Manon Cry for Francis' Genesis quest, I had made a comment where I thought it was appropriate as a joke. Little did I know, I was wrong. Dead Wrong. It was between Mecca, Lydia, Francis, and myself so I had little thought about if I would offend anyone. But, I offended Lydia to the point where she didn't want anything to do with me. I stated something about Grant, let me just say that right now. It felt to me as if it were a mixture of sadness, disappointment, and then instant rage. I know it was wrong now. I usually never let out things like that, and I hate to make that seem like an excuse because I shouldn't be looking for one. I guess you can say I'm a douchebag for saying it. And I am sorry. I apologize to both Lydia and Grant.

Lydia, I am sorry that I hurt your feelings and made you get that "IDGAF" attitude. You were right. I did, and possibly still do, deserve your harshness. It was never meant to be offensive, but what can I say? Just as you put it, I'm a failure. I don't want you to "just forgive me" because I can't redeem myself if I let you do it. I should have been appropriate at all times, and not kill the moment. I don't mind if my -100000000 likeness stays like that for 2 days, 8 months, or 3 years. I want to be able to earn what I lost back from you. And I will work my hardest to achieve that. Ask anyone who knows me and knows me well. When I say I'm going to do it or want to do it, I go all out and DO IT. So please give me a chance to redeem myself.

Grant, I am sorry too. I don't know if Lydia had told you what I said about you or not. If she hasn't, ask her to tell you, and you'll see why I don't think you'll accept this apology for quite some time. I'll understand it if you're angry at me. You should be. What I had said was way out of line. I talked about you behind your back, trying to twist it into a joke. I know how you get when I call you things. It's not pretty. So, I KNOW I have a lot of work to do if I ever want your respect back.

To both Francis and Mecca, if anything I had said saddened you when I said what I said, I am sorry. There aren't many other ways to say sorry, but you know how I got after Lydia fired back. Francis knows more of it than anyone here can even comprehend. The day itself was horrible from the start. I am not turning this into an excuse. Yesterday was more or less THE worst day of my life...or the 2nd depending on who I refer it to.

A final word: I am sorry to everyone in KissandRide had I ever offended you. Please, if I have ever say or do something to you, let me know and tell me "That's not cool, Will". Do not be afraid of me.